why can’t i just get over the fact that i lost a friend…a couple friends….and move on with my life? why do i sit here and make myself miserable worrying and thinking about it NON STOP. This isn’t fair…I don’t want things to go back to how they are. I want to move on and not pretend like nothing happened. That doesn’t mean i don’t want them back though. Can we not move on together? I guess not.
Why does this have to be so complicated? Why can’t is be easy and care free….Like we were in kindergarden when you didn’t care who your friends were as long as they shared the crayons…Why can’t our minds work the same way now. Why can’t we all just do like we are told and be true friends to each other? Why do we have to act like jerks because we are afraid our rep will be ruined or our other friends will judge us. If you have friends that are judging you then they aren’t true friends….Why does it have to be this way?
So if you dont mind me askin why were u cryin in your boyfriends arms from 130 to 2?
about a lot of stuff…mostly about my…old friend and stuff she had said to me and just this on going fight…i never really talked to him about it and he was sitting with me one night when something happened and i just exploaded….it doesn’t really make sense but it was something that i really needed
So after people ranting and raving about Black Swan...
I went to go see it…WOW it SUCKED! i mean maybe my expectations were to high but it wasn’t good AT ALL….i mean seriously? this chick fantasizes about being a lesbian and then she goes through intense pain to become this demon thing so she can be seductive on stage and then subconsciously kills herself because it was all so perfect….? it sucked….I am very disappointed in Natalie Portman…and i know i will probably get a lot of crap for saying this but….she is so sweet and innocent why on earth did she do a lesbian sex scene?! it was terrible…plus that scene was completely unnecessary to the movie….so theres my rant on the Black Swan…theres a lot more i can say but i know i will get crap for saying it :/ hah but if you ask me…Don’t go see it…
I sat in my boyfriends arms and cried….he is the most amazing guy in the world and i would do anything for him. He is my best friend and my first and only true love. I don’t know what I would do without him. He is my world. Thanks for being there when no one else was :)
35 minutes later….that wasn’t so hard :/ it helped that i practically knew the speech already because we talked about it so much :) haha Oh and Carmen if you are still up i love how you love to write also! haha i love writing i feel like it is my only escape from life aside from God. and when i can use my writing for Him it is amazing :)
In this chapter Job is pleading to God to free him of this curse for the few days he has left in this world. He talks about how God made him who he is and He knows that Job isn’t guilty. He says that he knows God has a purpose for all of this and if he is guilty then he is sorry but if he isn’t that he can’t even lift his head towards God because he feels so guilty and disgraceful.
Job has pretty much come to the end of the line. He is just pleading to God to have mercy on him and let the little time he has left to be enjoyable. Keep in mind it is satan who is doing all of this to him. That is what satan does. He makes us believe that we are truly guilt and cannot even be with God because we are too guilty. Like I said before he is a deceiver. I love this chapter because Job is basically begging to God to have mercy on him. It is cool to see how much Job trusts in God to have been begging to Him this whole time to take away this pain or just kill him now. He doesn’t ever curse God for doing this to him but stays loyal to God and pleas for peace and comfort. I think we can ALL learn a lot from Job. He is a loyal and faithful servant of God and teaches us that even in our hardest times we cannot give up on God because He NEVER gives up on us.
In Job chapter 9 he replies to what his friends are telling him. He says that there is no way that he can be in the right with God because, well, it’s GOD. He then goes on to talk about how amazing God is and how he can move the mountains and can shake the earth and commands the sun and stars when to rise and set. He says that even if he isnt guilty and hasn’t sinned if he was in the presence of God his mouth alone would be enough to condemn him. He says that he thinks God punishes the wicked and the innocent and he is one of the innocent. He talks about how his days are numbered and he would have rather died as a baby when he was born than like this. He then asks if God can take this pain away from him and maybe then he wouldn’t be so afraid of Him because this is not who he is.
Job has a lot of great point in this chapter but is also wrong in many ways. He is right in the fact that compared to God we are all guilty and He is perfect. None of us can be right with God because He is God. But God is a fair and just God. He doesn’t put you through something you cannot handle. He doesn’t punish without reason. He doesn’t wish us to be miserable and laugh at us when we are. When ever you are going through a difficult time know that God wouldn’t be doing this if there wasn’t some sort of reason. A lot of times it is really satan deceiving us and making us believe that is is God. We need to realize that satan is the deceiver. He is known as the prince of lies and a lion devouring all he can. God on the other hand is just and fair. He loves us but when we sin He has to punish us in some way so we know what we did is wrong and we can try to not do it again. He loves us dearly and we can ALWAYS go to Him. Please, I’m begging you, run into His wide open arms and soak up Him unbelievable love. It doesn’t matter what you’ve done or who you are HE LOVE YOU!
In Job chapter 8 two of his friends come and talk to him about what is happening. They say that he and his kids sinned against the Lord and that is why all of this is happening. They tell him to plead with God for mercy and be just and upright and God will forgive him.
Their view on this couldnt be more wrong. When we are going through hard times it doesn’t mean that we have sinned and God is punishing us. Yes, we do have consequences for our sins such as i you have sex you can get pregnant or get an STD or if you lie you can get caught and grounded or if you steal you can get arrested. But at the same time that isnt what happened here. Satan is attacking Job to see if he is as faithful as God said he is. Satan attacks us on a daily basis and that is why we constantly sin. Please understand that God is not someone who condemns and strikes people with lightning because you sin against Him. He is a loving and compassionate God. He is the thing you run into the arms of when you realize you have messed up. I feel like that is what stuck out to me in the chapter more than anything. They are misleading job to believe that the reason he has ABSOLUTELY nothing is because he is guilty. But he isn’t and it is all satan’s doing not God’s. So please understand that this is not the God of our world. The God of our world has arms stretched wide open for you to run into and tears streaming down His face because we constantly reject Him. He is overflowing with love and compassion and we choose to not take it. Instead we turn to worldly things that will constantly let us down. Time and time again we get hurt because nothing holds up and we are left crying and alone. And God is there right next to us trying with all His might to get you to understand that He loves you forever and won’t let you down. But He can’t make you come to Him. He gave us the choice and now we need to make the decision. Realize that everytime you cry because someone lets you down Jesus is right there crying even harder because you won’t come to Him and He has to see His own children constantly get hurt time after time
The mind is such a complex thing. I wonder what all goes on in our minds. What are we subconsciously thinking about? It amazes me what happens when we let our minds wander. What we come up with. The ideas our imagination produces. Where does it all come from? I think that researching this would cause us t loose some of you creativity. I think such wonderful things are better left a mystery. I love the magic that is involved with our minds. How ideas seem to appear out of nowhere when we take the time to let them. Let’s just all take the time to appreciate the creation that God has given us. The ability to think for ourselves and use our minds to create imagine and dream.
so i can go hang out and calm down the stress level with tim :)
I really need to talk to him about the whole school thing…..but even he doesnt really act like he cares…..i just wish someone would come up to me and say look this is what you need to do..now go do it.
idk i know i probably would question them even then…i just need to chill out…wheres barns n noble when you need it? :)