Most of them I address to God. Some to actual people. But a lot are just…. to no one.
I talk about my “friends” a lot and just how I am feelings about things.
It helps me to… not moap around all day. I don’t really plan on letting anyone see them. Just the ones I address to people.
I L.O.V.E. writing and it is one of my ways to cope with things. I don’t talk to people about how I am feeling on a daily basis. really on a monthly basis. People think “Oh yeah she used to be depressed all the time but now she’s fine. That’s all in the past” But in reality I finally opened up… and just decided to close up again… at least to most people.
Anyways. This is my way of letting things out. They are my letters to God :)
Ok so my last couple days haven’t been that great… I spent most of my time today writing notes to no one or being completely…. out of it… just some stuff that is going on has me down… plus my wisdom tooth is coming in and I have been feeling terrible :/
But I’m trying to not stay “depressed”… Kind of like the song.. I get knocked down but I get up again. You ain’t ever gonna keep me down.. :) Trying my best…
Personally I think that there are so many different types of love and that we use this word lightly.
I feel that we should over use and abuse LOVE but not use it lightly. I believe that love is sacrificing EVERYTHING for someone because you want them to be happy. You would take everything that has caused them pain in their life if you could. You hate being apart from them and feel like part of you is missing when they aren’t beside you. You couldn’t imagine them not being in your life. When you look towards your future you wouldn’t imagine being with anyone but them. There are no secrets between you and that person.
You don’t hide anything from them. You WANT to share your entire life with them not feel like you HAVE to. They can tell with one glance when you are not ok. And they don’t ignore you. They bug you until you tell them because they know you will be better when you talk about it.
Love is being there for someone even when they don’t deserve it. When they have been the worst that they can to you and have completely turned away. In spite of all of that you still love them sincerely and care about them.
Always being open and ready to help. No matter who it is and what they have done to you or anyone else.
Lastly I believe that if you do not have God in your life then you are incapable of loving to the fullest. God is love. So if you don’t have Him how could you have love?
But I’ve rambled on long enough.. What are y’alls definition of love?
But I am so glad that I got to hang out with Tim tonight.. :)
He is the light of my life and I hate going more than an hour without seeing him… Unfortunately I went 2 weeks without seeing him… :/ I love this man soo much. The only place I feel safe and happy is when I am laying on his chest… When he surrounds me with his arms. I feel so safe… so protected… like nothing can ever get to me.
And then I strech up and kiss him on the cheek or he leans down and kisses me on the neck. I love him so much. He is the only one who knows what to do or say to take my mind off of EVERYTHING that is bothering me.